Wine upon the lips: Is it horrible that I miss the old me?
When i was alone in this world, when i wanted to die, when i was single, when i was cutting, when i was in the dark, when i was a loner, when i hated everything and everyone, when i felt the most alive, when I was depressed, when i was starving and purging to be in control,…
Not horrible just makes me wonder what I’m doing wrong. I should be able to make you happy and I feel like sometimes lately, I just am not enough. Maybe I’m just holding you back. Maybe you would be better off without having to be with me. Maybe that’s the problem.
everything i said was bad. youre the good thing in my life. and i want to make it better, like when we first met. we can do it. i dont want to die alone and i dont want to die without you. i just want a different life, together.
